old & unfinished nothing
Jan. 14th, 2001 07:23 pmI've believed so many things in my life. Up until I was 13 I went to private/Catholic schools, I remember in third grade we all had to sign a piece of paper saying we believed in Jesus and rejected Satan. I hadn't even known what it had meant!
I grew up thinking God was eavesdropping on my every thought and disapproving all the while. I'd think something and then blush when I remembered God (and perhaps all my dead relatives) was listening. When I couldn't sleep I'd talk to Him. I would never have thought that some people didn't believe in God, I never thought that it might not be Scientific Fact and Absolute Truth that God was real.
In fifth grade, when I still didn't fully understand the concept of God, I once said to my schoolmates "God Sucks!" just to see what they'd say. I would have been shocked, at the time, if someone had said such a thing to me, but my friends merely shrugged or, even worse! agreed.
It was around that time I began to realise exactly what God was, and once I'd grasped the full idea, I realised I didn't believe in such a thing at all. How could I? Who the Hell had come up with this? I posed that exact question to one of the nuns at the school, and she answered me by slapping me across the cheek and sentancing me to 20 "Our Fathers".
I grew up thinking God was eavesdropping on my every thought and disapproving all the while. I'd think something and then blush when I remembered God (and perhaps all my dead relatives) was listening. When I couldn't sleep I'd talk to Him. I would never have thought that some people didn't believe in God, I never thought that it might not be Scientific Fact and Absolute Truth that God was real.
In fifth grade, when I still didn't fully understand the concept of God, I once said to my schoolmates "God Sucks!" just to see what they'd say. I would have been shocked, at the time, if someone had said such a thing to me, but my friends merely shrugged or, even worse! agreed.
It was around that time I began to realise exactly what God was, and once I'd grasped the full idea, I realised I didn't believe in such a thing at all. How could I? Who the Hell had come up with this? I posed that exact question to one of the nuns at the school, and she answered me by slapping me across the cheek and sentancing me to 20 "Our Fathers".