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[overocea]

can you imagine being so angry as to actually scream?
or even raise your voice!

i wish i could say "it's not fair!"
that i could believe in bonsai kitten & be outraged
& that i could throw red paint on scared young ladies exiting the abortion clinic
oh i wish that buying tampons would shame me &
using them would disgust me
that my mental anguish would be so bad i would cut myself to feel something real
& i wish i was so desperate for control of some aspect of my life that i'd starve myself
maybe that'd i'd blush on hearing the word "sex" &
censor the "God" out of all my "goddamn"s
i wish i'd wear the shoes everyone else is wearing

faced with torture.. i would confess
sometimes i'm not sure how i mean things when i say them

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[(Anonymous)]

I wish I could confess.

mmhmmm..

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if you're asking to confess to me:
no.